Beauty in the Breakdown

This is the second installment from my last blog, as promised. Ok, where was I?

Oh yes, so...there I was, lying in my bunk bed at the end of an exhausting day distributing water. Feeling pretty broken and confused. Broken over Haiti and mainly just confused as to why on earth I couldn't fall asleep. As I lay there pondering over the day all of a sudden I felt this deep-inside-me kind of peace and giddy joy. Similar to the feeling you get when you are close to someone you deeply love and trust. Ah, I love His presence. I felt super close, like God was lying in my bed next to me. I began pouring out my heart before him - a whirling mixture of worship, thanks, questions, doubts. Amazement and anger. Gratefulness and frustration. Amazement and gratefulness because of his sweet presence that sustained me through the day, because of the fact that he would choose to use us as his hands and feet, because of his unrelenting love and grace. Anger and frustration because of the overwhelming feeling of ineffectiveness. Because of my doubt and unbelief that Jesus really was enough, that he really is the Way, Truth and Life.

I paused. Took a breath. Waited...and in that quiet moment I felt like my mind was picked up, flipped upside down and inside out and filled with the understanding and revelation of Heaven's perspective!

How did I miss it?! It seemed so obvious! Cholera is merely the physical manifestation of a spiritual disease that runs so deep in Haiti. Waters of death flushing out the waters of life. That which they think will satisfy and heal them is the source of their death by starving them of Life and dehydrating them of the Living Water. You can pour and pour and pour out physical food and water, build new infrastructure, educate and teach, build clinics and water filters, you name it. You can do all of that and more - and these are all valuable and important, essential even. But because the "bacteria" is living inside them, everything you pour in is flushed out straight away.

They are blind to God's truth. They don't know they are loved and valued by their Creator and Father. Therefore they don't value themselves or others. Therefore they don't even take care of and look after the things they have. Therefore they live in squalor which leads to disease. The poor and weak are oppressed and abused by the powerful and strong. It's all a result of sin and the oppression of the enemy.

The reality of the spiritual sickness here is so much more prevalent and dangerous than the physical sickness. They are suffering because they have forsaken God - not cause he is punishing them, but because as a nation they have walked out from under his protection. This sickness is just a symptom, a backlash of their country being willingly given to the lordship of Satan. It was so so in my face and blatant.
Our fight is not against flesh and blood. This is the reality. Jesus is the only way truth and life. It's not a nice Christian answer to problems anymore. This is the hard reality. This is the only hope and only salvation. Nothing but the blood of Jesus.

The goodness of God, the light of his love and the extent of his deep grace is immensely more beautiful in the light of the revelation of the darkness, evil and depravity of man without God. I can't help but to daily stand in awe of his love and truth. All I want to do is know him more and become just like him. All I want is for every living organism to know and experience this exquisite love.

So. Pray. Intercede. Fight for this nation. Please lift up our team. Through your prayers the bride of Haiti is being restored to her Beloved Husband.

I love you all and am increasingly grateful for your friendship and support.

He loves you more though.
Kerri



PS - check these websites for more info on the 200 hour prayer burn and how to get involved!

www.ipray4haiti.com
www.jasenchung.com